aliveatbest

aliveatbest @ 2006-04-16T22:33:00

2006-04-17T02:36:32Z

Oh hey, everyone sends me different signs.

billy number three.

2006-04-04T21:09:14Z

Billy.
Make.
Me.
An.
Entry.

AND, flylikeapenguin4: hey at least im not the one sticking other peoples phones in my pants
You do it all the time. :D

I don't update often:)

2006-04-02T23:08:48Z

But thats okay becuase no one really reads this anyway.

I had a really fun weekend.
It really ment a lot to me.
On friday I hung out with Maureen, Christine, Marley, Lindsey, Billy, Matt, Matt and Peej.
It was so fun just becuase I love all of them and were weird as hell but were hilarious.
We spent the entire night out on my trampoline because it was gorgeous outside.
Billy was a slut<3. It was the best ever. :]

But then Saturday after Reen, Steen, and Mar slept over we went to the mall.
It was fun and we all got something.
Marley got the coolest shoes that are literally like.... her shoes.
And so did Steeeny and there so pretty& white.
Maureen got like a million shirts hahaha.
I got a skirt. I'm pretty cool.
Ha, so then we came back to my house.
Mar went out with Calzone and me, Christine, and Maureen went to my house and ate pizza.
Then we walked to Dairy Queen and saw Sean and ate icecream.
And then!
Christineee went home and Maureen slept over.
And this morning we all went for breakfast.

So yeah I overall really really enjoyed my weekend and it's going down as my favorite weekend.
:)

Life's finally making sense.
And I'm so happy.
And thankful<3!

If you read this, I love you.

Yeah Billy, thats probably you hahah.

P3@CeEeE

just because

2006-03-25T03:59:15Z

flylikeapenguin4: you need to update your livejournal more often
xjaym 37: haha oh god
xjaym 37: no one reads it
flylikeapenguin4: i do
flylikeapenguin4: well theres noting there to read

First off, No one reads this, and if you are, or if your Billy, then thank you.

Anyway, what can I say about this month?
It's brought me a new side of life, and I'm pretty sure I'm set on it.
I've seen past mistakes of other people because the only thing to do after you fall is to get back up, and thats what I'm doing.
I found out who my truest friends are, and I cannot be more thankful.
I hope love sees me in the future, because I'm done with hurting.

k! so,
Today in school it was one of the funniest days ever, despite Stevie making fun of my eyebrows. Hahahah. It was acutally hilarious.
I'm pretty happy with this weekend, cause I'm hoping I'll see Maureen Mar and Billy.
But I'm sick, as shit. Yay!

I really don't know what else to write except,

HAPPY BILLY?:)

Move Along

2006-03-12T05:23:10Z

:]
I realize things fast, I'm glad because it's good for me.
I mean I still have anger in me, but I have moved on.
:D:D:D.

This weekend was pretty.. eh okay!
A little too much family though. Haha I love them.

Life is hopefully getting better.

Worst feeling ever

2006-03-08T13:51:47Z

So this probably has been the worst week of my life so far.
Everyone at my school has probably seen me cry, and no I'm not proud of it.
I guess it's better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all.
But honestly, when does this go away?

Obviously if you haven't figured it out, I'm single.
I don't really know what to feel on love either.
I mean it always seems like, you can never love again.. but I know I can.
But I'm afraid because this isn't the first time its happened, just the worst time.
I can't honestly figure out what I want, it sickens me.
I'm staying home from school today, because I passed out at 930 last night.
And my parents sometimes understand me, and are letting me recooperate for a day.

My dad told me, to just get up and move on.
And I will.

I have loved a liar. I have loved a sinner. I have loved yet not been graced with love itself. It is best to not see love as anything, but to see it as everything.

bye.

add me

2006-03-05T21:18:20Z

I have no friends on this.
Add me!

t0ky0b0t: LOL WE LOVE YOU RENZ

aliveatbest @ 2006-03-04T23:42:00

2006-03-05T04:43:50Z

Tonight I went to the Wayne show with Brian.
It was fun, I saw a lot of people that I haven't seen in a while, and it was nice!
I met Chelsea and shes awesome.

Tomorrow I'm waking up early to go to church,
and probably going home and studying, because I have four tests Monday:(
So so so gay.

My perspective on things changes constantly,
It's strange to me.

Well I'm going to sleep soon, hopefully!

RonjonSS04: omg your different then the others
RonjonSS04: I LOVE YOU
words of wisdom.

Lorenzo!

2006-03-04T03:21:56Z

Everytime I get down, I seem to come back out of it.
And today was actually good for me.
School was fine, then I went to Christine's and we went to go get her nails done.
It was fun.
Then me Kelly and Christine went out to Hillside, and it was fun.
We got alot 25 cent things!
We went home back to my house
And right now the two of them are on the phone with Lorenzo.
No joke, we've been on the phone with him for about 23 minutes,
Because we brought home a magazine, and it in said "Got Headshots?" "Call Lorenzo!"
Anyway, after like 100 date hotlines we called him.
He sounds and acts like a rapist, hahah.
Were like, HOW MUCH FOR HEADSHOTS?
He's like, YOU KNOW WHAT, ILL DO YOU GUYS FREE.
SICKKKKKKK.

Anyway, we found a new friend.
He laughs with us.

Today was happy,
I'm happy to be alive today haha.

I'm gonna go listen to them!

snowday

2006-03-03T01:01:26Z

Today was our second snowday,
Hopefully we won't have another, because if we do that means off of Spring Break.
And that would be gay.

Today I spelt really late today.
And went to bed at like 1 last night.
My day was horrible yesterday, but I think a long nights sleep made up for it.

I've come to realize that things happen,
Unexpected or not.
I think I just get too overwhemled.

Well this whole day I spent doing nothing,
And now I'm going to go watch a movie with my family.

second live journal

2006-03-01T22:26:49Z

I decided to make a new one.
It's probably gayer then the second one.
But whatever, I'm going to use this one.

March first,
Hm, I could recap this year, but I'll save it.
Pointless entry!

Leave me happiness please, I need it.